i can say one thing on this. no matter how bad i’ve been how hurt i’ve been. how much shit has been boiling in my head before i’ve had the same thoughts as you but gmod is honestly an escape from all of that. i forget all my problems when i’m causing havoc on aether yk? maybe gmod isn’t for you but find something to help you get by if it’s as bad as you say it is. don’t just do nothing. it only makes things worse. Wish you well… -Ballsack….(2)